Words, Pics/Inks: Heath Lail
Hullo, folks. Been a while. If you have any last minute shopping to do, I have a wonderful idea. Go to a Christian bookstore or Wal-Mart in Holly Springs and Pick up the book It's Not About Me by author Max Lucado, and the Journal that goes along with it. I guarantee it will be the best money you'll ever spend. After reading the book about three or more months ago, I saw the Journal in the HS WM and decided to spend some of my birthday money on it. It is awesome...I started my Journal last night, and it just seemed right to share it. From time to time, I will be sharing certain devotion comments from the Journal, while other nights, I will simply be here to chat. Well, here is my first entry, an answer to the question:
What aspects, if any, in your life are just "not working" right now?
God, tonight I ask you to come into my heart and make it once again beat for you. I have grown lax in my Christian walk, and my life has suffered for it. Last year I lost my Papaw, and now Sam has forsaken me as well. I feel unable to do the task that I feel strongest about--my writing. I constantly feel tense and worried, and that keeps me from focusing on my studies, my writing and my friends. Words can not express the feeling of loss I feel over Sam. I loved her with all my heart, yet it now appears to be unrequitted love, a love I shall ne'er know. My family is split apart over the birth of my nephew(the fact that Melony has yet to bring little Gabriel down to our house upset my Mother because it makes her feel that the house is dirty or tainted), and my once-closest friends feel more like new acquaintances with whom I'm no longer really very familiar. As "bad" as my life may seem, I know others out there hurt worse than I. Please God, help those in need of You, and please help me get back into focus with You and Your plans for my life.
After writing that, I felt...cleaner than I had in quite some time. Better, to have gotten my feelings out. If nothing else, buy the book for yourself. It will open doors and release pent up hurt, anger and pain and perhaps make you a less grouchy person. I know it has started to have that effect on me. Merry Christmas to all.
Heath
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