Written by: HPLL Pencils: Gil Kane, Inks: John Romita Sr.
Oddly enough, this issue is not about death...it is coming up sometime later. Instead, it is about first loves. Gwen Stacy was Peter Parker's first love, the first one to make him feel as though he was special to someone, and the first girl he truly loved. Early in the series, Peter and Gwen were not romantically linked at all, but instead barely spoke to each other, Gwen seeing Peter as a nerd, and Pete not really making moves on any women because he was shy. When they got to know each other, they REALLY clicked, and they were practically inseparable. Peter was going to confide in Gwen his secret identity when her father, police Captain George Stacy, was killed by a chunk of falling masonry during a fight between Spider-Man and Doctor Octopus. After this, Gwen developed a hatred of Spider-Man, claiming he was to blame for her father's death, and Peter chose to not tell her for good reason. At this point in the book, Gwen has just returned from a European trip, and she and Peter seem to be reconnecting. As seen above, Gwen is killed during a battle between Spidey and the Green Goblin. These days, Peter is happily married (as much so as an imaginary character can be, I suppose) to supermodel Mary Jane Watson-Parker, but he has never forgotten his first love. Why is that? I don't know...it seems as thoughsome people just 'click' with those of the opposite sex, and once that bond grows a little, it tends to spread like wildfire. Usually, people only have a max of one or two people like this in their lifetime, and if things do not work out romantically between these two, they still feel as though they are intimately connected, and may look you up after years of silence, or become your number one confidant throughout life. The most important thing to remember is to treat this person/people with the utmost respect, or else that deep connection can cause deep damage to your relationship if things sour. For instance, if you repeatedly hurt this person, you may be truly sorry, but they will find it quite difficult to be as close as before, and almost never will they give you a romantic chance if one has never been explored. Let me tell you, this experience of moving away is the most painful thing I've ever felt. I have someone like this in my life, and I have done almost irrepairable damage to our relationship...it felt like there was a small chance for romance once, but now that fire has not just gone out, but it seems put out by that flame foam stuff. The situation that was inflammatory has been put away, but the damage has already been done, and she finds it very hard to trust me, with good reason. Every night I ask God to let her trust me again one day, and I pray that she finds happiness in life, and never feels the hurt I put her through again. Friends, I was a fool...I wasted almost four years of my life, and now have nothing to show for it but being lonely and the shadow of a once-strong friendship haunts me, telling me I was an idiot to hurt that relationship. Reminding me that she was always there for me, no matter the consequence, but I let her down repeatedly and lied to her unmercifully at times. I can't even...I can't talk about it anymore. I'm sorry for everything, Samantha. I know you say it is water under the bridge, but for me it isn't. You mean more to me than I can say, and I hope you can learn to trust me as you once did. Without your friendship and advice I really feel lost. Before I go, I just wanna say this-- I feel better, no, cleaner around you. That hangup of mine you know about? It doesn't come around when I'm around you. I really do wish you the best with the Seth situation, and I hope you find happiness, cause I realize I had my chance and I blew it. I always wanted just one more chance but I kept blowing those too. I was driving around Memphis today, and I realized something...people have to live...truly live their lives in order for their actions to be worth a damn thing. Don't worry about what others think...do what you want, and what your heart tells you to do. G'night...please don't be mad Samantha...I spoke my heart for once.
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:(, awwww
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